If I stop will you promise to keep on walking?
I’m going to make origami cranes like crazy. Not only does it keep me busy, doing good for others takes my mind off of things. I feel like a decent person when I use my time for others. But we all know that’s just absurd. Me. A decent person. Pffft.
I have a secret…
I never wanted it to be this way.
Here’s to all the things I never got to tell you.
Here’s to all the things I truly regret.
I never told you how much I love you did I? But I do. So much. And now you’re gone and I miss you more than ever. Sure you’re still here but it’s not the same. You were my brother but most of all my friend. I love you kid. Always did.
My words don’t seem to cut it. Not tonight. Not this night.
It’s been quite a year; how I’ve made it through is quite a curious thing. But here’s a huge thank you to the people in my life that have made it this way.
Jed and Holly, I don’t know what I would do without you. You guys put a smile on my face at times when I thought I had forgotten how. You’re both such amazing friends and deserve the whole world and then some.
Jacob, for being my brother. For being so amazingly strong. You’ll get through this kid. And when you do you’ll come out a champion, a victor. I miss you like crazy kid and you’re not even gone. Thank you so much for holding on when you didn’t have to. Thank you so much for surviving. I love you.
And to you three I owe my world.
Awwh, merci. [: J’espere tu va avoir un bon jour aussi!
Je ne parle pas francaise…
Really, I don’t. Would someone care to explain to me then why I’m in my third year of it? I don’t understand. Really, I don’t.
I spent ten minutes lying on my living room floor.
Fucking A, what am I doing with myself?
Nothing interests or excites me anymore.
Lemon curd, fig spread, cheese. I love my life.
I kinda injured my car tonight. I don’t know how long it will take to get her repaired, but I will miss her every second she’s gone. :’(
I get to see my beautiful little brother tonight. :]
In the end
it’s the knowledge that I’ll never see what everyone else sees in me. And I’ll never be able to love someone else the way everyone else does. That’s what hurts the most.
Dad: Nice picture frames! USC and MSU colors right Kelli?
Me: Gryffindor and Slytherin obviously.
Went to an antique store. Got myself a locket, a sweater, and a turkey pin.
Merry Christmas to me.